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Well I went to the college student dinner yesterday at the pastor's house. It was an odd experience. The food was good, but during the spiritual conversation in the smoke-filled library I began to argue with the pastor to the point where I was starting to get angry. That has never happened before in real life outside of my family. Fortunately I hid my anger pretty well, and it ended on a good note, but it made me feel disappointed. We basically just argued for an hour about moral absolutes, and my take on it was that you didn't always have to follow things to the letter (meaning, that there were times when you could do the contrary) and that you didn't have to be moral towards those who disrespect you. I actually wasn't that elegant in my speech, but that was the gist of it.

I just don't believe in a God that cares about human morality. If he did, so many things would be happening right now, that simply are not.

In any case it made me think about quitting church and even Christianity. I won't, but it did cross my mind. Maybe I will later on, who knows? I certainly wasn't raised that way.

It is slightly warmer now, and will continue to get warmer. I simply need to focus more on my intellectual works. I just picked up a book on the subject of being that is basically just a physicalistic circlejerk; it will be amusing to see how much I disagree with it. Sometimes you learn more from works that you don't agree with.