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Dec. 31st, 2013 10:29 amLet the 2013 Monthly Synopsis commence.
January: I got into a huge internet fight during the end of the month where I lost almost all of my online friends. It was perhaps the greatest one that I had ever taken part of, to the point where people were going onto other communities to talk smack about me. I also went to Spokane a few days later and the judge quickly gave me SSI, which was a lifesaver.
February: SSI becomes official, and I try to finish up with my paper route. It was a little hard at first, and I was concerned about training someone for the job.
March: Trained someone and stopped doing the paper route, and about a week later I do DXM for the first time in 17 months. It was an amazing experience.
April: I get more into legal drugs, probably doing a substance once every two or three days. My mind doesn't become baked but my emotional disturbances reach a fever pitch; sort of have a miserable time.
May: SSI kicks in by this point, I think. My delusions and misogyny get to the point where I have to go into the psych ward for three days; that was surprisingly a pleasant, constructive experience. I gradually stop using drugs due to them causing eye pain. Start drinking quite heavily due to the lack of drugs as well as dealing with the anniversary of my mother's death.
June: I think this was the month where I lost internet access at my home, which sucked at first but later on helped me quite a bit. I start going to the library and then gradually start reading philosophy as a direct result. I also start writing essays in philosophy. I went to Pendleton during the end of the month to see my brother, which was an enjoyable experience despite the fact that I paid for mostly everything. It was both the first time I had been to Pendleton in six years and the first time I ever went on a long car trip alone.
July: The anniversary of my mother's death happens, and it was bad. But I finally stop drinking and it gets better. I read quite frequently at this point, and I start to lose my misogyny and delusions. No longer so emotional and self-absorbed, I become more intellectual and worldly, and other people start to notice. Start going to church, and I make a few friends in the Christian community.
August: I stop going to church for a while, but I come back after two weeks or so. Read a lot more, expanding into mysticism and religion at this point, I believe. I don't really know what else happened. Wait, I started to audit a logic class this month. That was a good decision.
September: This was one of the best months of 2013. I tripped on DXM again, and it inspired me so much that it made me realize that I have supernatural powers. I also made a computer game based on my trip, which was a first. Quite a few people liked it. In short, I basically just watched horror movies and had a good time, although I was diagnosed with GERD that month.
October: I do DXM a few more times, and eventually lose the magic. It was sad, but it taught me that I am probably better off without it for a while. I will probably gain the magic back after a long wait. I also tried to start a job at a call center but I stop, realizing that it would have been a horrible job for me. Almost everyone supports me in my decision.
November: I have odd spells of depersonalization, and visions. My birthday comes up, and I didn't think all that much about turning 30 at the time. GERD is pretty much gone.
December: The odd spells tone down, but don't go away. Stop reading and writing for a while due to being distracted. I realize the full extent of my age and realize that I'm not so young anymore, not even being in my 20s by this point. Decide that I will gradually stop drinking and be more careful about what I eat, and so far I haven't gotten drunk since the day before my birthday and I will probably stop drinking alcohol altogether in a few days. I gain weight due to drinking less, which catches me off-guard. Become a lot more aware of my physical well-being and wonder how I will fare in the future.
Altogether, 2013 was a very interesting year. I probably grew up more in this year than any other. I don't know what 2014 will bring.
January: I got into a huge internet fight during the end of the month where I lost almost all of my online friends. It was perhaps the greatest one that I had ever taken part of, to the point where people were going onto other communities to talk smack about me. I also went to Spokane a few days later and the judge quickly gave me SSI, which was a lifesaver.
February: SSI becomes official, and I try to finish up with my paper route. It was a little hard at first, and I was concerned about training someone for the job.
March: Trained someone and stopped doing the paper route, and about a week later I do DXM for the first time in 17 months. It was an amazing experience.
April: I get more into legal drugs, probably doing a substance once every two or three days. My mind doesn't become baked but my emotional disturbances reach a fever pitch; sort of have a miserable time.
May: SSI kicks in by this point, I think. My delusions and misogyny get to the point where I have to go into the psych ward for three days; that was surprisingly a pleasant, constructive experience. I gradually stop using drugs due to them causing eye pain. Start drinking quite heavily due to the lack of drugs as well as dealing with the anniversary of my mother's death.
June: I think this was the month where I lost internet access at my home, which sucked at first but later on helped me quite a bit. I start going to the library and then gradually start reading philosophy as a direct result. I also start writing essays in philosophy. I went to Pendleton during the end of the month to see my brother, which was an enjoyable experience despite the fact that I paid for mostly everything. It was both the first time I had been to Pendleton in six years and the first time I ever went on a long car trip alone.
July: The anniversary of my mother's death happens, and it was bad. But I finally stop drinking and it gets better. I read quite frequently at this point, and I start to lose my misogyny and delusions. No longer so emotional and self-absorbed, I become more intellectual and worldly, and other people start to notice. Start going to church, and I make a few friends in the Christian community.
August: I stop going to church for a while, but I come back after two weeks or so. Read a lot more, expanding into mysticism and religion at this point, I believe. I don't really know what else happened. Wait, I started to audit a logic class this month. That was a good decision.
September: This was one of the best months of 2013. I tripped on DXM again, and it inspired me so much that it made me realize that I have supernatural powers. I also made a computer game based on my trip, which was a first. Quite a few people liked it. In short, I basically just watched horror movies and had a good time, although I was diagnosed with GERD that month.
October: I do DXM a few more times, and eventually lose the magic. It was sad, but it taught me that I am probably better off without it for a while. I will probably gain the magic back after a long wait. I also tried to start a job at a call center but I stop, realizing that it would have been a horrible job for me. Almost everyone supports me in my decision.
November: I have odd spells of depersonalization, and visions. My birthday comes up, and I didn't think all that much about turning 30 at the time. GERD is pretty much gone.
December: The odd spells tone down, but don't go away. Stop reading and writing for a while due to being distracted. I realize the full extent of my age and realize that I'm not so young anymore, not even being in my 20s by this point. Decide that I will gradually stop drinking and be more careful about what I eat, and so far I haven't gotten drunk since the day before my birthday and I will probably stop drinking alcohol altogether in a few days. I gain weight due to drinking less, which catches me off-guard. Become a lot more aware of my physical well-being and wonder how I will fare in the future.
Altogether, 2013 was a very interesting year. I probably grew up more in this year than any other. I don't know what 2014 will bring.
