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Jan. 23rd, 2014 11:07 amUp to 34,000 words now. If the story is only going to be 50,000 words long, I've done over two-thirds of it. It might end up being a little longer, but even so I think that the climax of the story has already been reached.
I did a lot yesterday. It really exhausted me. As it turns out, I can really only do two or three things during the day, or else I start getting very depressed and fatigued. I just recently figured that out, and I don't know why it is that way. I can do things that keep me independent just fine, but I can only focus on so many meaningful things. Last night I was laying on my bed in the middle of writing, because I just felt so sad and so physically ill. I don't experience depressive episodes that often, but they are often accompanied by physical illness and it hits me out of nowhere. It is just very odd. This helped me realize that I do need to be on SSI, and really can't have a full-time job. There is just something wrong with either my energy levels, or my brain. Probably both.
We met the new roommate, and as it turns out I met him a few months ago. He seems like a cool guy, and will move in around tomorrow or so.
I might drop the Theory of Numbers class, although I am not certain. It does help me think, but the professor doesn't seem to be very receptive of my insights, despite having a relatively pleasant personality. People in the STEM fields tend to think in terms of absolutes, as well as think in a linear fashion. I am just the opposite, therefore I wouldn't do well in a class like that. Come to think of it, the worst conflicts I have had with teachers in the past were all from the hard sciences. Despite being different people, they just didn't appreciate either my personality or my thinking style (tangential, and philosophical). This has led me to realize that perhaps people aren't defined by their level of social skills or their outward personality, but rather by the way they think. For two people can think the same way and believe the same things while living different lives. I suppose it just depends on how you want to define the person.
I really like Philosophy as well as other classes that promote divergent thought (such as English) because in those classes my manner of thinking is appreciated, or at least tolerated. I don't regret getting my degree in Psychology and pursuing that route in graduate school, but if I had to do it all over again, I'd probably choose Philosophy. Sure, you could say that you can't get a job with that, but I didn't get a job anyway, so LOL.
I did a lot yesterday. It really exhausted me. As it turns out, I can really only do two or three things during the day, or else I start getting very depressed and fatigued. I just recently figured that out, and I don't know why it is that way. I can do things that keep me independent just fine, but I can only focus on so many meaningful things. Last night I was laying on my bed in the middle of writing, because I just felt so sad and so physically ill. I don't experience depressive episodes that often, but they are often accompanied by physical illness and it hits me out of nowhere. It is just very odd. This helped me realize that I do need to be on SSI, and really can't have a full-time job. There is just something wrong with either my energy levels, or my brain. Probably both.
We met the new roommate, and as it turns out I met him a few months ago. He seems like a cool guy, and will move in around tomorrow or so.
I might drop the Theory of Numbers class, although I am not certain. It does help me think, but the professor doesn't seem to be very receptive of my insights, despite having a relatively pleasant personality. People in the STEM fields tend to think in terms of absolutes, as well as think in a linear fashion. I am just the opposite, therefore I wouldn't do well in a class like that. Come to think of it, the worst conflicts I have had with teachers in the past were all from the hard sciences. Despite being different people, they just didn't appreciate either my personality or my thinking style (tangential, and philosophical). This has led me to realize that perhaps people aren't defined by their level of social skills or their outward personality, but rather by the way they think. For two people can think the same way and believe the same things while living different lives. I suppose it just depends on how you want to define the person.
I really like Philosophy as well as other classes that promote divergent thought (such as English) because in those classes my manner of thinking is appreciated, or at least tolerated. I don't regret getting my degree in Psychology and pursuing that route in graduate school, but if I had to do it all over again, I'd probably choose Philosophy. Sure, you could say that you can't get a job with that, but I didn't get a job anyway, so LOL.
