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Oct. 14th, 2013 12:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
promenyI don't have a lot going on today. Class was cancelled, so I'm just going to try to read and finish a book in the same day. I don't know if I will be successful in that, but it will be worth doing. I don't have anything else to do.
I realized something last night. Up until recently, I was fine with turning 30, but I then realized that I made that judgment while still being in my 20s. What is it going to be like when I realize I am 30 when I have entered my 30s? It made me feel like I'm losing my faculties of youth and that I'm going downhill. Essentially, this means that if I haven't done anything significant by now, I never will. But this essentially isn't true, for there are many, many people who achieve greatness at older ages, and I'm more or less well-educated by now in any case. I don't really have to do anything big to start on something great; I just need to focus and gain more knowledge and experience from the books that I have been reading. All it takes is time and energy, not youth. Although it is sort of sad that I'm not getting any younger, and in a few years I will cease to be young at all. I still look younger than my age but I don't feel or think it. Having memory problems and not being able to drink so much anymore doesn't help, either.
I just need to be patient. My time will come. I just have to work for it, and keep an open mind.
I realized something last night. Up until recently, I was fine with turning 30, but I then realized that I made that judgment while still being in my 20s. What is it going to be like when I realize I am 30 when I have entered my 30s? It made me feel like I'm losing my faculties of youth and that I'm going downhill. Essentially, this means that if I haven't done anything significant by now, I never will. But this essentially isn't true, for there are many, many people who achieve greatness at older ages, and I'm more or less well-educated by now in any case. I don't really have to do anything big to start on something great; I just need to focus and gain more knowledge and experience from the books that I have been reading. All it takes is time and energy, not youth. Although it is sort of sad that I'm not getting any younger, and in a few years I will cease to be young at all. I still look younger than my age but I don't feel or think it. Having memory problems and not being able to drink so much anymore doesn't help, either.
I just need to be patient. My time will come. I just have to work for it, and keep an open mind.
