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Oct. 22nd, 2013 11:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
promenyI think that I'm going to stop drinking, although I don't drink that horribly much.
People have said in the past that I have a problem with it. I don't, although it seemed like I did because when I first started drinking I didn't know when to stop and I would act very immature. I simply had to learn how to handle it. I think that everyone goes through that phase, and it happened to me later in life due to having a sheltered life, meaning that I didn't develop properly.
The physician's assistant told me not to drink at all. I didn't for a week, but that got boring and my physical state didn't seem to improve. So I started up again, this time only drinking normal-strength beer. It didn't seem to aggravate my GERD too much, although now I've realized that it does stuff to me that isn't good. Vitamin deficiency, hair loss, and the whole works.
I need to have proper nutrition. I also need my hair. I don't think my hair is going to completely grow back at this point, which is upsetting. I don't want to be ugly.
I need to take care of my health. I'm not a kid anymore; I'm a man who is getting significantly older by the day. My body is hurting more, probably because I'm not doing the right things. I can't be reckless anymore.
I don't understand why I suddenly have these aches and pains. Part of it is due to the medication I think, while the other part is getting older and making the wrong decisions. This isn't the first time I've felt that my body is deteriorating; back when I was 22 and 23 my hair looked worse and I looked older than I do now due to all of the stress I was going through. So I know that it is partially reversible. But it gets harder to do when you are older.
I just don't want any more problems.
People have said in the past that I have a problem with it. I don't, although it seemed like I did because when I first started drinking I didn't know when to stop and I would act very immature. I simply had to learn how to handle it. I think that everyone goes through that phase, and it happened to me later in life due to having a sheltered life, meaning that I didn't develop properly.
The physician's assistant told me not to drink at all. I didn't for a week, but that got boring and my physical state didn't seem to improve. So I started up again, this time only drinking normal-strength beer. It didn't seem to aggravate my GERD too much, although now I've realized that it does stuff to me that isn't good. Vitamin deficiency, hair loss, and the whole works.
I need to have proper nutrition. I also need my hair. I don't think my hair is going to completely grow back at this point, which is upsetting. I don't want to be ugly.
I need to take care of my health. I'm not a kid anymore; I'm a man who is getting significantly older by the day. My body is hurting more, probably because I'm not doing the right things. I can't be reckless anymore.
I don't understand why I suddenly have these aches and pains. Part of it is due to the medication I think, while the other part is getting older and making the wrong decisions. This isn't the first time I've felt that my body is deteriorating; back when I was 22 and 23 my hair looked worse and I looked older than I do now due to all of the stress I was going through. So I know that it is partially reversible. But it gets harder to do when you are older.
I just don't want any more problems.
