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Nov. 9th, 2013 11:14 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
promenyI felt pretty weird yesterday. I felt somewhat nauseous during the late afternoon, and I laid on my bed for minutes at a time trying to recover. During the early evening I felt fairly dissociated after getting up from the bed; it was really bizarre. I haven't used any substances for weeks and I would have thought that nothing would have happened to me like that. I also felt a bit weird earlier in the day with my vision being a little odd, but it was nothing like how I was in the evening.
But I eventually drank beer, drank a little more, and watched Adventure Time, and that ended okay. I would frown upon drinking that much but it was a Friday night, so I let it slide this time.
But in short I really don't know why I feel so weird both mentally and physically. The lab results came back and they were fine, for the most part. I think part of it is that I'm going to be 30 in eleven days so as such I really don't know how to deal with or prepare myself for that. It is really just one of those things you have to let happen; maybe I feel so weird because I see myself as a failure. Well, the only way to fail for sure is to quit, and I'm far and away from doing that.
I'm going to work on a computer game for a contest. It is going to be called "Greater Schizotypal Co-Prosperity Sphere"; the theme is PARTY but most people are doing the game with celebrations and stuff. I, on the other hand, am going to focus on a fictional political party. Well, maybe there will be a fun party later on, who knows? At least the game will distract me.
But I eventually drank beer, drank a little more, and watched Adventure Time, and that ended okay. I would frown upon drinking that much but it was a Friday night, so I let it slide this time.
But in short I really don't know why I feel so weird both mentally and physically. The lab results came back and they were fine, for the most part. I think part of it is that I'm going to be 30 in eleven days so as such I really don't know how to deal with or prepare myself for that. It is really just one of those things you have to let happen; maybe I feel so weird because I see myself as a failure. Well, the only way to fail for sure is to quit, and I'm far and away from doing that.
I'm going to work on a computer game for a contest. It is going to be called "Greater Schizotypal Co-Prosperity Sphere"; the theme is PARTY but most people are doing the game with celebrations and stuff. I, on the other hand, am going to focus on a fictional political party. Well, maybe there will be a fun party later on, who knows? At least the game will distract me.
