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Nov. 21st, 2013 12:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
promenyIt is sort of strange. I intellectually feel 30, more or less, and sort of have the same level of wisdom, but I don't feel much different than I did when I was still 29.
Of course, to expect oneself and one's view of things to suddenly change when you hit 30 is totally unrealistic, but the fact that you aren't so young anymore should do something to you.
There is a slightly less amount of anxiety and dread, which I am grateful for, but I'm still getting visions as well as foggy episodes of derealization and depersonalization. Not as strongly as before, but they are still there. Maybe I've acquired magical powers? It isn't impossible.
Anyways I guess that things don't suddenly change when you hit a significant milestone, and you definitely don't act different simply because you are older. I've met too many juvenile-acting adults to know that. I just wish that I would suddenly change, is all.
Well, all there is to do is to wait and see. I don't regret turning 30 at all; I just don't know what I should do about it, entirely.
Of course, to expect oneself and one's view of things to suddenly change when you hit 30 is totally unrealistic, but the fact that you aren't so young anymore should do something to you.
There is a slightly less amount of anxiety and dread, which I am grateful for, but I'm still getting visions as well as foggy episodes of derealization and depersonalization. Not as strongly as before, but they are still there. Maybe I've acquired magical powers? It isn't impossible.
Anyways I guess that things don't suddenly change when you hit a significant milestone, and you definitely don't act different simply because you are older. I've met too many juvenile-acting adults to know that. I just wish that I would suddenly change, is all.
Well, all there is to do is to wait and see. I don't regret turning 30 at all; I just don't know what I should do about it, entirely.
