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May. 26th, 2013 12:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
promenyI had an experience last night.
My body and mind was set into full panic for about an hour, with me worrying intensely about breathing and passing out while not breathing. But eventually, it gradually passed, and I experienced the greatest euphoria that I've ever had in my life. It was like all of the darkness was lifted from me. Wisely, I decided to spend the rest of the time by myself, and it was very relaxing until the very end of it, when I was suddenly thinking in weird, wide shapes. Odd thoughts were dominant in my thought processes. Then the night passed and I fell asleep, waking up a little fuzzy headed. I'm still not thinking very clearly right now, which is annoying.
Do I regret the experience? Not quite, especially since I would have done something like this sooner or later. But will I ever do it again? I doubt it. I don't like feeling unreal, and I definitely wasn't being myself when I was experiencing it. Not to mention that my mind is still cloudy right now, and I now realize that my mind has to be as clear as possible. I just learned that today and I feel that this is a very valuable lesson that I really should have learned a long time ago.
But, you know, what can you do. The past is the past.
My body and mind was set into full panic for about an hour, with me worrying intensely about breathing and passing out while not breathing. But eventually, it gradually passed, and I experienced the greatest euphoria that I've ever had in my life. It was like all of the darkness was lifted from me. Wisely, I decided to spend the rest of the time by myself, and it was very relaxing until the very end of it, when I was suddenly thinking in weird, wide shapes. Odd thoughts were dominant in my thought processes. Then the night passed and I fell asleep, waking up a little fuzzy headed. I'm still not thinking very clearly right now, which is annoying.
Do I regret the experience? Not quite, especially since I would have done something like this sooner or later. But will I ever do it again? I doubt it. I don't like feeling unreal, and I definitely wasn't being myself when I was experiencing it. Not to mention that my mind is still cloudy right now, and I now realize that my mind has to be as clear as possible. I just learned that today and I feel that this is a very valuable lesson that I really should have learned a long time ago.
But, you know, what can you do. The past is the past.
