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Church was interesting. I told the pastor that I sometimes have doubts about my faith, and he said that it was both natural and understandable. Christianity is really about going beyond your reach to become and create something great, and as refined as my mind is sometimes I falter. But I feel a little more relived now.

Apparently there is a guy that was mentioned by the pastor's sons that is having some trouble with spiritual visions; this really struck a chord in me because I get those visions too, sometimes. I talked to one of the guys about it and he said that it would be great if I could talk to the person when he is better (he is committed right now). So I might help someone with dealing with that kind of stuff; who knows?

It is odd; when I confessed to my brother about one of the thoughts that I had in my head as a joke, I suddenly stopped having thoughts like that. And he didn't even judge or shame me, either. He wasn't even phased. I really think it is all for the best; I'm just not sure why that happened.

In any case I've sort of decided that I probably won't drink beer for a while. I don't even have a problem with it; it just doesn't make me feel good anymore. But maybe I'll go back on my word, who knows? In any case at least I have the right intentions.