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Sep. 10th, 2013 10:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
promenyI went to the ER last night because I was having some serious chest pains. I've been having them for a while, feeling that I was having some heart problems. They hooked me up to a bunch of machines and did some tests on me; it took about an hour and a half. As it turns out, I don't have heart problems but rather GERD; that was a huge relief. I had some Mexican food with my Dad a few hours earlier so that probably caused the chest pain.
I have been looking at myself in the mirror, though, and I have been seeing myself as a fat piece of shit. I mean, I'm not fat or a piece of shit, but I still don't look so good. I need to lose about twenty pounds and stop drinking alcohol (although I haven't had alcohol in three days). I'm very much aware of my mortality and frailty now, and I need to have more respect for my body.
The nurse was able to tell that I was on the Schizophrenia spectrum. That was interesting; at least she didn't think that I was autistic. It turns out she has a son with Asperger's.
It turns out that my car is more or less fine; there was just a loose fuse. So that was easy to fix.
I need to take better care of myself, and eat better food (not that I eat too much bad food). I'm not a young kid anymore; I don't recover from things like I used to.
I have been looking at myself in the mirror, though, and I have been seeing myself as a fat piece of shit. I mean, I'm not fat or a piece of shit, but I still don't look so good. I need to lose about twenty pounds and stop drinking alcohol (although I haven't had alcohol in three days). I'm very much aware of my mortality and frailty now, and I need to have more respect for my body.
The nurse was able to tell that I was on the Schizophrenia spectrum. That was interesting; at least she didn't think that I was autistic. It turns out she has a son with Asperger's.
It turns out that my car is more or less fine; there was just a loose fuse. So that was easy to fix.
I need to take better care of myself, and eat better food (not that I eat too much bad food). I'm not a young kid anymore; I don't recover from things like I used to.
