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Sep. 19th, 2013 11:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
promenyI'm going to be 30 in two months. That really sort of shocks me, in that way. I mean, I don't feel really young, but I don't look anywhere near 30.
I think what is even more mind-boggling is that I'm currently 29. 29 is not an extremely young age, and it puzzles me how I got this old. I mean, what did my 20s consist of? I know that I did a lot, but it just feels like everything was so muddled and convoluted and now I'm going to be in my 30s. It doesn't feel that long ago when I was 25 or so. I still feel about that age. It is just really, really confusing to think about how all that time passed, and where it went. It makes me wonder if I used my 20s constructively. I mean, I know that I tried, but I feel as if I failed.
I'm going to turn into a wizard. My powers will be realized. When I was younger I was ashamed of that prospect but now I think it is really cool. I could make a game out of it, you know, go for a record. Oddly, I actually DO think something will happen to me on my 30th birthday; I'm just not quite sure what.
Nothing else to do today; I'm just going to relax and start researching Manichaeanism. Should be fun, and maybe enlightening.
I think what is even more mind-boggling is that I'm currently 29. 29 is not an extremely young age, and it puzzles me how I got this old. I mean, what did my 20s consist of? I know that I did a lot, but it just feels like everything was so muddled and convoluted and now I'm going to be in my 30s. It doesn't feel that long ago when I was 25 or so. I still feel about that age. It is just really, really confusing to think about how all that time passed, and where it went. It makes me wonder if I used my 20s constructively. I mean, I know that I tried, but I feel as if I failed.
I'm going to turn into a wizard. My powers will be realized. When I was younger I was ashamed of that prospect but now I think it is really cool. I could make a game out of it, you know, go for a record. Oddly, I actually DO think something will happen to me on my 30th birthday; I'm just not quite sure what.
Nothing else to do today; I'm just going to relax and start researching Manichaeanism. Should be fun, and maybe enlightening.
