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Nov. 5th, 2013 11:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
promenyI've kind of gone through the ringer over the past day or so.
Yesterday noon I was in a fugue of sorts, and I wandered around the Commons. When I was near the top of the stairs, there was this young, arrogant lady who looked at me while passing, turned her head and said "douche".
That made me very upset. Nothing like that has ever happened to me in real life (at least it was the first time I noticed it), and it just made me very angry and paranoid. I felt like curb-stomping her.
I can't believe how women have devolved over the past couple of years. That simply wouldn't have happened when I was in college; only the nastiest women would have done something like that. But these days, it is like women feel like they have to be nasty to men. There is just so much self-entitlement within younger women these days; it is going to destroy our society.
I had beer last night, because I felt that not having it was causing my mental illness. I felt okay, but it wasn't good for me in the long run. I'm going to stay away from alcohol indefinitely, or at least I'm going to try.
I talked with my friend about it this morning; she told me not to worry about it, and that the person wasn't worth the fuss. She's right, but I just got really florid and upset.
I feel better now, but if something worse happened, I wouldn't know how to deal with it. I'm sort of surprised that due to the fucked up way I was brought up that I haven't hurt somebody yet, to tell the truth.
Yesterday noon I was in a fugue of sorts, and I wandered around the Commons. When I was near the top of the stairs, there was this young, arrogant lady who looked at me while passing, turned her head and said "douche".
That made me very upset. Nothing like that has ever happened to me in real life (at least it was the first time I noticed it), and it just made me very angry and paranoid. I felt like curb-stomping her.
I can't believe how women have devolved over the past couple of years. That simply wouldn't have happened when I was in college; only the nastiest women would have done something like that. But these days, it is like women feel like they have to be nasty to men. There is just so much self-entitlement within younger women these days; it is going to destroy our society.
I had beer last night, because I felt that not having it was causing my mental illness. I felt okay, but it wasn't good for me in the long run. I'm going to stay away from alcohol indefinitely, or at least I'm going to try.
I talked with my friend about it this morning; she told me not to worry about it, and that the person wasn't worth the fuss. She's right, but I just got really florid and upset.
I feel better now, but if something worse happened, I wouldn't know how to deal with it. I'm sort of surprised that due to the fucked up way I was brought up that I haven't hurt somebody yet, to tell the truth.
