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Nov. 11th, 2013 11:09 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
promenyI'm still getting weird dreams, but I don't remember half of them.
I honestly think that I'm slowly becoming the weird way that I am due to the realization that I'm not a particularly young adult anymore and that I need to find some way how to deal with that. Trying to figure that out will definitely produce a fair amount of revelations and stress if you don't really know the answer.
The odd thing is that I don't mind getting older. I mentioned earlier that my brother felt that I did, but it is really not the fear of getting older in itself; it is the fear that I don't know how to act my fucking age. And I'm not even that immature anymore. In comparison to others my age, I live a totally different life, and I don't know how to feel about that. When you are still in your 20s it isn't so horrible, but once you hit your 30s it starts becoming important, or at least more noticeable. Maybe living a different life will help me produce something great, but it is all speculative.
Honestly, I think it will be sort of cool when I'm 30, but there is no way to know for sure at this time. I can't believe that I've been around for this long, to be honest. Mentally I'm still around the 25-27 age range.
Well, that is that.
I honestly think that I'm slowly becoming the weird way that I am due to the realization that I'm not a particularly young adult anymore and that I need to find some way how to deal with that. Trying to figure that out will definitely produce a fair amount of revelations and stress if you don't really know the answer.
The odd thing is that I don't mind getting older. I mentioned earlier that my brother felt that I did, but it is really not the fear of getting older in itself; it is the fear that I don't know how to act my fucking age. And I'm not even that immature anymore. In comparison to others my age, I live a totally different life, and I don't know how to feel about that. When you are still in your 20s it isn't so horrible, but once you hit your 30s it starts becoming important, or at least more noticeable. Maybe living a different life will help me produce something great, but it is all speculative.
Honestly, I think it will be sort of cool when I'm 30, but there is no way to know for sure at this time. I can't believe that I've been around for this long, to be honest. Mentally I'm still around the 25-27 age range.
Well, that is that.
