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Dec. 14th, 2013 12:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
promenyMy negative feelings about women are returning. I don't really know why; they aren't as strong as they used to be but it still bothers me. It is probably due to the stress of the changes that will come.
A lot about your life can change just from having another person move in (especially if it is a relative) or if a class ended.
I'm not a loser. I strive to do things with my life. I know that I will amount to something; I'm just not sure when and where. It isn't due to a lack of trying, at least not completely.
In any case I've been fascinated with a lot of mystical concepts lately. I have the morbid fascination with the imagery of hell. I've gotten the notion that hell would be more interesting than heaven; I've had that belief for a while, actually. I looked up "hell" and "heaven" on tumblr and the "hell" tag was a lot more interesting to me.
I've found that the negative things in life are the ones that inspire us with intrigue and wonder. Good things can do that, too, but the negative things are usually the ones that are more realistic.
I smoked a cigar yesterday, and I actually came to a lot of interesting thoughts. I do want to write about them, but I'm not sure how. But I'll worry about it when the time comes.
A lot about your life can change just from having another person move in (especially if it is a relative) or if a class ended.
I'm not a loser. I strive to do things with my life. I know that I will amount to something; I'm just not sure when and where. It isn't due to a lack of trying, at least not completely.
In any case I've been fascinated with a lot of mystical concepts lately. I have the morbid fascination with the imagery of hell. I've gotten the notion that hell would be more interesting than heaven; I've had that belief for a while, actually. I looked up "hell" and "heaven" on tumblr and the "hell" tag was a lot more interesting to me.
I've found that the negative things in life are the ones that inspire us with intrigue and wonder. Good things can do that, too, but the negative things are usually the ones that are more realistic.
I smoked a cigar yesterday, and I actually came to a lot of interesting thoughts. I do want to write about them, but I'm not sure how. But I'll worry about it when the time comes.
