promeny

So some people like my songs, other people hate them.

I was expecting a mixed reaction and a lukewarm reception, so it is no big deal. It was my first album, after all, and as such I need to get better. And I likely will.

My brother told me that the music I make isn't the stuff he would listen to, but he did say for me to get a better music editor. So I did just that, and hopefully that will solve most of the problems.

I honestly think I will become something. It will just take time, and brains.

I read a bit today, and I'm quite interested in what Theosophy has to offer. Of course there are a lot of things about it that are wrong, but some of the people in that movement really know what they are talking about. Leadbeater is a very knowledgeable and talented writer, and so far I've been reading his largest (or one of the largest) book of his with zeal.

I wonder what church will be like tomorrow. Hopefully I won't go in there with the wrong mindset.

So yesterday I didn't start writing, but that is fine, because I realized that I have no idea whatsoever about how to write Inner Demons. But you know, it is still something to try out; just not right now.

Instead, I've been creating electronic music for my band, Clockmaster Anderson and the Sexy Boiz. Well, they are really more remixes of existing electronic music than they are original songs, but they sound very fresh and unique, and I'm not going to make money off of them, so it doesn't matter.

I originally wanted to create Vaporwave music, but the songs sound more like Noise and Experimental more than anything else. I'll still try to make Vaporwave, but maybe that isn't quite my calling.

In any case I was very productive yesterday; I made three songs, one of them I'm quite proud of. Their titles are in a warped version of Czech, which I think makes it look cool. If I keep this up, I'll finish the first album in two or three days, which is spectacular.

I think that I am becoming a polymath, or at least a jack-of-all-trades. This makes me feel like I'm not inept, and that I may do something great some day. But there is no way to know for sure.